Wedding

Dear Bean (althought you must be looking less like one now!)

It's been a while since I last updated. Since then your pa and I have:

got married; and
bought flat.

We got married on 18 November. It was a beautiful Saturday with the sun shining brightly. To be honest I really can't remember half of it because it went by like a whirl and it was possibly the happiest day of my life ever. I remember being happy and your pa looked so charming (and nervous) while he stood with the minister while your grandpa walked me down the aisle. Best bit, you were alright and with me all that time so that made it even more special.

About two days before the wedding, we had a scare when I started bleeding slightly and had to get on hormonal medication which made me ill and then we had to do a test to see if you were affected by down syndrome. I've never felt the kind of fear I did when the doctor said that I had to test you for it. I was so scared and I cried the whole night worrying about something that was beyond my control. Your pa was worried too but there wasn't anything he nor I could do but wait. We got the result the same day and there's just about a 1/20,000 chance of you having so that was a relief. We just want you to be alright.

I'm getting rounder and rounder day by day. I can't wait for the day that I feel you moving inside me. I'm not sure how that would feel but it'll be amazing. We told your grandparents about you over last week. Everyone's really excited and you're already so well loved! I realised that in an ideal world, your pa and I would have been engaged for about a year or so, then married first then waited for a bit, then try for a baby. I don't feel the social stigma at all that we didn't do all that because I don't want just any other baby, I want it to be you, the best part of your pa so social convention and everyone in it can go stuff themselves with a sock and a lid.

We're (at least I am) thinking about names. If you're a boy, you're likely to be called either Henry or Edward. If your a girl, then I like the following names: Isabelle, Kirsten, Amanda or Paige. Do you like any of those names? Lily would be a nice middle name.

We're going to have another look at you this Saturday! Yay!

Love,

Mama