When all you can do is...

Dear Pea-pod

Can I just say:

How grateful I am to have you

That I'm worried mostly about your father who is doing his best by us

And that I know what it's like to feel afraid

When you have to be responsible for another life

Sometimes I want to curl up in a corner and not move

I don't want to go out, do anything but just hang my head

When I get sad from time to time and cry (like now)

It feels like a big lonely space

But this means my life has been full to feel all that

For everything happens for a reason

Even in bad times, some good can still come out of it

There will be a time that comes and we sit back and say

"See, that was a window where the sun shone on you"

For now, I have to say

All the times that I have been ill and coping with nausea

And for all the times that I moan for it to be all over,

Pea pod, you've been good for me all these while.